Today I find myself pondering the separation of my body from me...my soul. The fact is that our body's are just vessels to get us around in this life. It is only real because we say it is. Well, my body is full of pain so if I am not my body how can I learn to separate myself from it so that it doesn't affect my soul? Can I just meditate it away? Think it away? Its one of my biggest obstacles and I want to overcome it. The pain is keeping me from moving farther forward. When I am in a state of love and joy and admiration of beauty I barely notice it but as soon as I'm back to this reality there it is again. Haunting me and antagonizing me. Like an evil keeping me from the truth. Deepak Chopra talks in length about healing your own body but its not enough to read it or listen to it. You must feel it with every ounce of energy in your being. Believe it with all the threads of your soul. Yet the world fights you with this. Doctors give you meds and say there's no other way. They tell you that this is your life now and you just have to deal with it, manage it. They keep you coming back feeling that you need those drugs to get through so that you keep giving them your money. Why not right, they work don't they. Do they? Do they really work or do we just think that they work because thats what we are told. We tell ourselves that it will work because we've been told it will. And then it does. Why can't we just as easily put the same thing into effect without the drugs. Tell yourself the pain or disease is gone and it will be gone. But thats just it....you can do that but what is hard is the believing it part. We are told our whole lives that that kind of thing is ridiculous. We can't heal ourselves. Thats what doctors are for. But we can. We somehow have to train our minds to stop listening to what we've been told for our whole lives. Just because we say it once doesn't mean our subconscious will listen. We have to breed it into ourselves just as all the nonsense of the world has been bread into us. Its like relearning how to do everything without allowing the outside influences of the world sway us back to our sleep state. I know once I was awakened the world has constantly tried to put me back to sleep. Its so easy to just slip back into our state of unconsciousness and accept the realities of what "they" want us to believe. I refuse to close my eyes again. My whole life I have questioned this reality and known theres something more out there. Now that I know it is there I want to find out all that I can about it. I refuse to spend this life allowing my vessel to bring me down. I will not let my own vessel work against me. I will find the truth. I will heal myself. I will honor God within me and follow the path he lays out for me and no one elses. This is part of my path and I will somehow conquer it. Conquer the fear of being truly free.
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