Our search for happiness

Our eternal search for happiness. We all search for it. We all pray for it on bended knee at some point in our lives. Its what drives us through every day. We do all kinds of things trying to find it. We love for it, work for it, some even kill for it. We will do horrible hurtful things just trying to find that one thing that will bring us the happiness we long for. The majority of us are or have searched in all the wrong places. I personally have shamed myself, hurt others, been selfish, and stepped over others all in the name of wanting to be happy. All along all I had to do was look inside myself. It took many mistakes for me to figure that out. I kept looking on the outside or to other people telling them it was them that had to make me happy. When all along it was only me that could do that for myself. We put so much stock in things and other people. Some of us including me think that other peoples approval will give you what your looking for. I must say I still struggle with that one from time to time but truly we are all flawed and to accept someone else's flawed approval of you is just plain silly and will definitely not bring you happiness accept maybe for a moment.
I think that true happiness is when you discover who you really are, embrace it, and love it. You find God within you and the beauty of what only He can create. All the details are important. Each gift big and small that makes up who you are. Your body has nothing to do with any of it so for those of you thinking " if I were only skinnier, if I only had this color hair, if I only got that manicure or pedicure, if I could just make me skin smoother or get rid of my wrinkles" can stop thinking those things. Our bodys are merely the vessels we create to carry us through this reality. The inside is all that matters. The way we feel and give love, our talents, our truths, our hopes, the way we express ourselves, our knowledge and wisdom, our ability to comfort another person or our inability to do so. We all have our strengths and weaknesses. We are each special in our own way....each of us given the strengths we need to get through our journey in the way that we are supposed to. I don't even believe that our weaknesses are really weaknesses. They are just another gift we are given as an opportunity to learn from this life. It doesn't matter what our strengths or weaknesses are. God will find us and show us the way. Every encounter we have is just another opportunity to find Him, to find happiness, to find love.

We could just keep walking through life and ignoring all these amazing signs we are being given and many of us do. We are sleep walkers. Just because we get out of bed does not mean that we are awake. We must truly awaken our souls. To find happiness we must awaken that deep place inside of us that the world tries to force us to keep asleep, look into the face of our creator, and release the energy inside of us. The energy we keep all balled up inside these bodies....trapped just waiting to be let out. That is true freedom, true love, true happiness. We use the word empty when we are unhappy. I don't believe we are truly empty because inside of us is where the answers lie. Maybe we are too full because it is once we release all that we have trapped inside of us that we feel relief. We pack down all the pain and push down all the feelings while at the same time packing all of this poison around our souls. Around the enlightenment that lies within us. We allow it to destroy us from within instead of pushing it out into the universe. We must breathe in all the positive energy that the world has to offer us and expel all the evil, all the hatred, all the negative and seething pain that we have been holding onto for so long. We are all dealing with things in our lives. Painful and hurtful things. The situations may look different but they are truly the same opportunities to learn and grow. To become pregnant with the love of our creator. We don't have to go through this alone. He is there and He gives us each other to help us through it. We are all balls of energy separated only by other smaller balls of energy and until we learn how to share those energies and see each other and ourselves for who and what we really are we will not find the happiness we are looking for. You are already full....just free yourself and you won't have to feel that "empty" feeling anymore. You will be happy and you will be free. Your questions will be answered.